Allah loves you.
He loves you more than 70 times ammi loves you.
He wants that you be free of sin and strong in imaan. And When Allah wants you to learn He will create a ground for that. Sometimes it’s a dear friend who has ditched you, sometimes it’s an angry spouse, sometimes He gives you hard parents, sometimes He gives you a stubborn child, sometimes He makes ways to reject your visa application for no genuine reason, sometimes He will fail you in your astrophysics exams only to have your repentence in His court, only to have your cries and servility of being Muslim. Only to make you learn.
Allah’s Messenger (ﷺ) said,
Only so that in times of trials, tests and tribulations you learn to only turn to Him. No matter what.
Walk to Him, turn to Him, crawl to Him, cry in front of Him.
Don’t be silent to Him.
For even if you do, He still listens to your hushed tones since He is nearer to you than your jugular vein.
Ya Muqallibul qulubi thabbit qalbi ‘alaa deenik, ameen.